Your frustration is perfectly understandable! But you should be well aware that you’re causing your small intestine lasting damage eating foods containing gluten. In the short term this will not only cause you pain, but also in the longer term your small intestine will no longer be able to absorb many important nutrients. The more frequently you “have a binge”, the more damage you do to your small intestine mucous membrane. It can give rise to malnutrition, which then causes further concerns and secondary problems. So that you can enjoy daily life without worrying in the longer term, we urgently advise you not knowingly to consume gluten. Nowadays alternative types of food are even quite fashionable and your friends would also certainly enjoy them with you!